so this week has been kind of a week that i don't really care to be having, BUT what more can you do?? things happen that you don't want to happen but everything that happens, happens for a reason otherwise they wouldn't right?? haha. As hard as it has been to do what i did, i do not regret it in any way possible, but i do still care about that someone or something the same and always will even if its just as friends!
I have recently met a new friend and that friend has already been there for me to talk, to hug and to cry on! He has listened to all my stories weather it is just a silly stupid story that happened that day or if it was just something i had to get off my chest! The best part is when it is something that is somewhat maybe negative about myself his reply is shanie don't even worry you are gorgeous or you are smart.. just something that is so simple to make me smile and to make me feel so great about myself! I could not ask for a better friend right now than him and really appreciate that he is already so caring!!!
It is just the small things that others can do for one another to change someones life and that is something i have learned, and i hope that i can start helping others by doing that same act of kindness! How simple is it to just give someone a simple compliment to turn a frown upside down? Its not going to waste your breath so go out and change someones attitude, or their mood! You may not know it but they really do appreciate it! I know i do!! so thank you for the friendship we have already gained colton!! :))
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Mother like Daughter*
One of the hardest days for me have come and gone just like that!
I don't even know where to start with telling you guys how blessed i was to have the mom i had.. She was my best friend, my life savor, and most of all my MOM!! They always say a child is always more comfortable with their mother and that is because she carried us for 9 months.. she feed us, and loved us from the moment we were in her womb!!
My mother was the most caring and gracious woman anyone could have ever known. She never cared about herself whether it was her needing to eat, or get a new piece of clothing, or needing money. She put everyone else before her to make them happy!! When she found out she had stage 5 cancer she was un affraid, and knew that whatever would happen to her it was gods plan and would tell us kids over and over its going to be ok, i am fighting... not for me, but for you!! And oh goodness let me tell you what... she did fight and she put up an amazing fight that is for sure! She had lost her vision, her memory, and was losing her ability to even speak, but that never stopped her!!!
She ended up fighting for just about a year until one day she just got so weak and was struggling so much the nurse knew that it was her time to go, but mom refused to leave us because we were not wanting her to go anywhere. But as her family we knew it was what was best for mom at the time so that she could find peace and to be able to return to our Heavenly Father and be in a perfect healthy body! So as we knelt down to pray around mom and said our goodbye's we told her it was "OK" to leave us, that we would be able to take care of ourselves she had one last beautiful and amazing breath her on earth and she was gone!!!
Nothing could ever feel more humble to me than when people look at me and say "you look just like your mom, beautiful!" Makes my heart melt and i just get the biggest smile on my face. There is nothing more i would love then to be told that, because i know that i am a rememberance of my mother and that is really special to me!!!
I know she not only loved us kids and our family, but she loved everyone that surrounded her! neighbors, co- workers, and even strangers! She was the most amazing person and i am so blessed that i get to talk about her and know that she is a special soul to me and to many others and all i want for her is happiness and i know that is exactly what she has right now in heaven!!! I LOVE YOU MOM! with all my heart and that'll never change!!!
I don't even know where to start with telling you guys how blessed i was to have the mom i had.. She was my best friend, my life savor, and most of all my MOM!! They always say a child is always more comfortable with their mother and that is because she carried us for 9 months.. she feed us, and loved us from the moment we were in her womb!!
My mother was the most caring and gracious woman anyone could have ever known. She never cared about herself whether it was her needing to eat, or get a new piece of clothing, or needing money. She put everyone else before her to make them happy!! When she found out she had stage 5 cancer she was un affraid, and knew that whatever would happen to her it was gods plan and would tell us kids over and over its going to be ok, i am fighting... not for me, but for you!! And oh goodness let me tell you what... she did fight and she put up an amazing fight that is for sure! She had lost her vision, her memory, and was losing her ability to even speak, but that never stopped her!!!
She ended up fighting for just about a year until one day she just got so weak and was struggling so much the nurse knew that it was her time to go, but mom refused to leave us because we were not wanting her to go anywhere. But as her family we knew it was what was best for mom at the time so that she could find peace and to be able to return to our Heavenly Father and be in a perfect healthy body! So as we knelt down to pray around mom and said our goodbye's we told her it was "OK" to leave us, that we would be able to take care of ourselves she had one last beautiful and amazing breath her on earth and she was gone!!!
Nothing could ever feel more humble to me than when people look at me and say "you look just like your mom, beautiful!" Makes my heart melt and i just get the biggest smile on my face. There is nothing more i would love then to be told that, because i know that i am a rememberance of my mother and that is really special to me!!!
I know she not only loved us kids and our family, but she loved everyone that surrounded her! neighbors, co- workers, and even strangers! She was the most amazing person and i am so blessed that i get to talk about her and know that she is a special soul to me and to many others and all i want for her is happiness and i know that is exactly what she has right now in heaven!!! I LOVE YOU MOM! with all my heart and that'll never change!!!
HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!!!!!
BiRtDaY gIrL*
Well those of you who follow me that i just recently had my birthday... So weird knowing i am now 21. I am not legal to buy alcohol! haha. good thing i do not do that stuff though so now days turning 21 is just another day to say i am becoming an old brat! :) ha. So i thought i would just kinda tell you a bit of how my birthday went...
The guy i have been kinda/sorta dating or friend... or whatever.. ha. He drove down Friday morning (my birthday) and spent the whole day with me! it was great!! While he took forever to get here my brother had the day off as well so he ended up taking me out to breakfast at Sill's Cafe, probably the best breakfast place EVER! so great!! Well we got done eating and Kory had still not arrived so my brother and i decided to go out and do some golfing... not the smartest idea beings that we were golfing in 30 mph wind and on top of that it was snowing!!!! But my brother was determined to finish all nine holes so he did. Then we went home!
About the same time we had got home from the golf course Kory had arrived FINALLY!! ha. So from there on out it was never ending of doing something. We went up to the mall and we went shopping and he bought me a super cute purse, which was very much needed i had been telling him that forever ha. My other purse was so out dated it was a bit ridiculous! Well shopping sure wore me out so we came back to my house and watched a movie and took a little snooze.
We woke up and of course he was hungry.. whats new though that boy is an eating machine but yet cannot gain a pound off it! poor thing! haha. So i called up my brother and sister in law and asked them if they wanted to meet up with us for dinner and go to goodwood, (that was an interesting dinner date that is for sure, of course it was me who made it awkward with my stupid questions.) but it was still a blast to be able to spend time with my brother and sister!!
Later we wanted to do some mini golfing and desert or something but were still so full from dinner so once again we came back to my place and watched another movie and dosed off. And after we were ready to go we hit up some mini golfing and of course I DOMINATED! :/// haha. i gotta make myself look good sometimes right? and what better than to make it on my birthday! :)) we came home after mini golfing and just stayed the rest of the night inside watching movies and then went to bed!
We woke up saturday morning and went golfing with my family! IT WAS SUCH A BLAST!! i loved spending time with my family and kory! My dad wanted to make things interesting so we were starting the back 9 and he wanted to take on zach, jordan, kory, and i against him in a game! Of course he had some bad shots got pissed off and ended up losing and having to buy all of us costa vida! and it was bomb!! Still though my favorite was just getting to spend time with the ones who i care and love most!!!
Thanks for the best birthday a girl could ask for it was great!!!!
The guy i have been kinda/sorta dating or friend... or whatever.. ha. He drove down Friday morning (my birthday) and spent the whole day with me! it was great!! While he took forever to get here my brother had the day off as well so he ended up taking me out to breakfast at Sill's Cafe, probably the best breakfast place EVER! so great!! Well we got done eating and Kory had still not arrived so my brother and i decided to go out and do some golfing... not the smartest idea beings that we were golfing in 30 mph wind and on top of that it was snowing!!!! But my brother was determined to finish all nine holes so he did. Then we went home!
About the same time we had got home from the golf course Kory had arrived FINALLY!! ha. So from there on out it was never ending of doing something. We went up to the mall and we went shopping and he bought me a super cute purse, which was very much needed i had been telling him that forever ha. My other purse was so out dated it was a bit ridiculous! Well shopping sure wore me out so we came back to my house and watched a movie and took a little snooze.
We woke up and of course he was hungry.. whats new though that boy is an eating machine but yet cannot gain a pound off it! poor thing! haha. So i called up my brother and sister in law and asked them if they wanted to meet up with us for dinner and go to goodwood, (that was an interesting dinner date that is for sure, of course it was me who made it awkward with my stupid questions.) but it was still a blast to be able to spend time with my brother and sister!!
Later we wanted to do some mini golfing and desert or something but were still so full from dinner so once again we came back to my place and watched another movie and dosed off. And after we were ready to go we hit up some mini golfing and of course I DOMINATED! :/// haha. i gotta make myself look good sometimes right? and what better than to make it on my birthday! :)) we came home after mini golfing and just stayed the rest of the night inside watching movies and then went to bed!
We woke up saturday morning and went golfing with my family! IT WAS SUCH A BLAST!! i loved spending time with my family and kory! My dad wanted to make things interesting so we were starting the back 9 and he wanted to take on zach, jordan, kory, and i against him in a game! Of course he had some bad shots got pissed off and ended up losing and having to buy all of us costa vida! and it was bomb!! Still though my favorite was just getting to spend time with the ones who i care and love most!!!
Thanks for the best birthday a girl could ask for it was great!!!!
Monday, April 25, 2011
'FORE'
So this past weekend i have done a ton of golfing and practicing to prepare for this summer when i will be able to get all mobility back and get back to my normal self which is a pro golfer of course! haha. jk. But let me just take you back to friday when i went actual golfing for the first time.
Friday a friend and I decided we would go hit up the course out here in syracuse and play 9. Well lets just say him and i both struggled big time on the very first hole. Pretty sure we both hit like six balls off the TEE ha. As we got to the third hole we both had finally gotten our 'swag' back and were hitting the ball a bit better. Well we round to the 12th whole Kory bombs a ball right into water/crap, but his second shot was pretty far right but still a good shot. I go up to hit the ball and NAIL a freaking house! not just hitting it into the yard or anything like that but hit the house you could hear it loud and clear.
Well of course it being my luck Kory's ball was laying right outside the yard of the house i had just hit, so we pull to his ball and i look over and sure enough the woman who owned the house comes walking out and just stands there for a few minutes watching kory and I as he is hitting his ball, i thought for sure she was going to say something.... but instead she just scanned her house to make sure nothing was broke and walked back inside. Needless to say i played like poop on friday and Kory is never going to let that down.
Saturday/sunday i did so much better with these irons. I guess i should have told you earlier that another thing is, i played with irons for the first time friday as well so i did not really know how to hit them very well, but i have been working with them and i am pretty sure i am figuring them out to where i can get my 'swag' back on and dominate the course!!! Also i challenged Kory and his brother to a scramble against my brother and I. My bro and I went and played 9 on sunday doing a scramble and ended up shooting a 37. though we should have done better! oh well.
Today i went out to the course around 4 to hit some range balls and practice more on those irons and also on my chipping and putting. And let me tell you what... today has for sure been my best day by far! i was crushing the ball and it felt so great!!! Now its time to rematch Kory and show him how good i really am. I let him feel good enough about himself last round so no more of that. Time to put him to shame. haha.
Friday a friend and I decided we would go hit up the course out here in syracuse and play 9. Well lets just say him and i both struggled big time on the very first hole. Pretty sure we both hit like six balls off the TEE ha. As we got to the third hole we both had finally gotten our 'swag' back and were hitting the ball a bit better. Well we round to the 12th whole Kory bombs a ball right into water/crap, but his second shot was pretty far right but still a good shot. I go up to hit the ball and NAIL a freaking house! not just hitting it into the yard or anything like that but hit the house you could hear it loud and clear.
Well of course it being my luck Kory's ball was laying right outside the yard of the house i had just hit, so we pull to his ball and i look over and sure enough the woman who owned the house comes walking out and just stands there for a few minutes watching kory and I as he is hitting his ball, i thought for sure she was going to say something.... but instead she just scanned her house to make sure nothing was broke and walked back inside. Needless to say i played like poop on friday and Kory is never going to let that down.
Saturday/sunday i did so much better with these irons. I guess i should have told you earlier that another thing is, i played with irons for the first time friday as well so i did not really know how to hit them very well, but i have been working with them and i am pretty sure i am figuring them out to where i can get my 'swag' back on and dominate the course!!! Also i challenged Kory and his brother to a scramble against my brother and I. My bro and I went and played 9 on sunday doing a scramble and ended up shooting a 37. though we should have done better! oh well.
Today i went out to the course around 4 to hit some range balls and practice more on those irons and also on my chipping and putting. And let me tell you what... today has for sure been my best day by far! i was crushing the ball and it felt so great!!! Now its time to rematch Kory and show him how good i really am. I let him feel good enough about himself last round so no more of that. Time to put him to shame. haha.
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Life's hidden lessons.
Have you ever had so much running through your mind?? possibly the thought: where will you be in 5 years? will you be married just yet? if so do you think you will have kids? possibly traveling with your spouse? or even just living happily in your cute little apartment trying to go to school to get a good education to even start doing any of that? Well none of those are quite yet me.. but the 5 year plan is what i think about all the time? will any of that be me in that time? well I SURE HOPE SO!
I often catch myself thinking what does god have in store for me? here is a quote i found on lds.org and it seriously is so true and amazing!!!
I often catch myself thinking what does god have in store for me? here is a quote i found on lds.org and it seriously is so true and amazing!!!
"Our hope and happiness lie in knowing who we are, where we came from, and where we can go. We are eternal beings, spirit children of an eternal God. God has had a plan for our lives since the beginning of the first act—a plan that, if followed, provides comfort and guidance now, as well as salvation and eternal happiness in our postmortal life.
Understanding the following can help us live a happier life now and in eternity."
We all sit and wonder to ourselves what is going to happen next, but we should not have to sit and worry where we will be or where we will go. The lord has a plan for us and we knew it in our pre-mortal life, and we agreed to it. So it is our time to live our lives to the fullest and enjoy the ride. Don't ever let money get the best of you, Don't let a broken heart stop you from finding your soul mate-- that one who broke it is obviously not the right one so why do we sit and hurt so much over them??
I hate dating just as much as the next person, but its how we find our spouses. I had a chat with a friend just the other night and its kinda what we talked about and its really had me thinking so much about life!!! And made me come to an understanding that yes god does have a plan for me but i have to stick to the standards our church has provided us, and that we cannot loosen up and give in and be apart of just the "normal" world.. I am still young and in that dating stance, but i know when and if i find that one that god will know and will keep him around for a reason!!!
So here is what i have done.. i have put together a powerpoint that has everything i am looking for in a future husband, and then i did one where its the goals i have to get there and to accomplish them and to have eternal happiness! these are some of the things i mentioned in the powerpoints i have done.
future husband
- wants a family and shows love for each and every one of his children
- is going to be able to support me and my family lovingly
- loves the gospel and cherishes it
- to be sealed for time and eternity
- someone who wants to go monthly visits to do temple work
- has ambition in anything and everything he does
- and last that he is happy and always has a SMILE on his face.
my goals
- be able to be a loving wife/mother
- make sure my husband and kids are always happy do whatever it takes to support them weather it is in sports, helping with homework, or giving advice
- to be able to cook for them
- to try not to argue with my husband and/or kids. to talk it out with a smile
- be married for time and eternity to the love of my life
For now i am just going to live my life and know that everything in the end is going to work out and that one day i will be eternally happy and grateful for everything!! because everything we go through here on earth is one lesson closer to our eternal happiness!!
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
BEST DAY EVER!
so today has already been amazing!!! i received an email from theeee cutest missionary ever telling me i will be getting a surprise in the mail today or tomorrow!!! :))))) which that could only mean its a PACKAGE!!! woot woot.
And on top of that i get to be with his family all evening! i love them so much!!
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THEN only 111 days and he is home!!!! eeek.
NUTS!!!
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welp that is all just wanted to share my exciting news! :)
i love elder brandley!!
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Hayden Steven Williams.
Today i received my first nephew! i have never been so scared, excited, and nervous all mixed into one big emotion! I got a call from my brother saying that they were heading into the hospital because my sister in law was having the worst contractions ever! I arrived at the hospital around 3 PM, and when i got there she was dialated to a 9 and all she needed to get to was 10.
So i am sitting here in this hospital room with my best friend Kersten and my family thinking ok.. she is at a 9 only one more and she starts pushing. Well that takes A LOT longer than you would ever think! It took about two and half to maybe three hours. I do have to admit though... i never knew that waiting in a hospital room could be so much fun! HAHA my bestie and i were just having a grand old time sharing our laughs and just messing around. They had free unlimited pop and suckers... bad idea. I am pretty sure i ate at least 20 suckers!! they were simply DELICOUS! YUM! Best part about the waiting was when the nurse would come in and help out my sister and Kersten's face was just as if she was about to throw up or was scared haha. oh goodness she is gonna end up having like 12 of her own kids one day... just wait. haha.
Finally around 6:30 my sister in law was able to start the labor and about 6:43 we had a new miracle that had joined our family here on this earth!!! :))) he brings so so so much joy to my families, and mines life!! He is going to be so blessed with the most amazing parents ever!!!!
So i am sitting here in this hospital room with my best friend Kersten and my family thinking ok.. she is at a 9 only one more and she starts pushing. Well that takes A LOT longer than you would ever think! It took about two and half to maybe three hours. I do have to admit though... i never knew that waiting in a hospital room could be so much fun! HAHA my bestie and i were just having a grand old time sharing our laughs and just messing around. They had free unlimited pop and suckers... bad idea. I am pretty sure i ate at least 20 suckers!! they were simply DELICOUS! YUM! Best part about the waiting was when the nurse would come in and help out my sister and Kersten's face was just as if she was about to throw up or was scared haha. oh goodness she is gonna end up having like 12 of her own kids one day... just wait. haha.
Finally around 6:30 my sister in law was able to start the labor and about 6:43 we had a new miracle that had joined our family here on this earth!!! :))) he brings so so so much joy to my families, and mines life!! He is going to be so blessed with the most amazing parents ever!!!!
Hayden Steven Williams
6 lbs. 15oz
19 1/2 in. long!! :)))
IM OFFICIALLY AN AUNTIE!!!!
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