so this week has been kind of a week that i don't really care to be having, BUT what more can you do?? things happen that you don't want to happen but everything that happens, happens for a reason otherwise they wouldn't right?? haha. As hard as it has been to do what i did, i do not regret it in any way possible, but i do still care about that someone or something the same and always will even if its just as friends!
I have recently met a new friend and that friend has already been there for me to talk, to hug and to cry on! He has listened to all my stories weather it is just a silly stupid story that happened that day or if it was just something i had to get off my chest! The best part is when it is something that is somewhat maybe negative about myself his reply is shanie don't even worry you are gorgeous or you are smart.. just something that is so simple to make me smile and to make me feel so great about myself! I could not ask for a better friend right now than him and really appreciate that he is already so caring!!!
It is just the small things that others can do for one another to change someones life and that is something i have learned, and i hope that i can start helping others by doing that same act of kindness! How simple is it to just give someone a simple compliment to turn a frown upside down? Its not going to waste your breath so go out and change someones attitude, or their mood! You may not know it but they really do appreciate it! I know i do!! so thank you for the friendship we have already gained colton!! :))
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Mother like Daughter*
One of the hardest days for me have come and gone just like that!
I don't even know where to start with telling you guys how blessed i was to have the mom i had.. She was my best friend, my life savor, and most of all my MOM!! They always say a child is always more comfortable with their mother and that is because she carried us for 9 months.. she feed us, and loved us from the moment we were in her womb!!
My mother was the most caring and gracious woman anyone could have ever known. She never cared about herself whether it was her needing to eat, or get a new piece of clothing, or needing money. She put everyone else before her to make them happy!! When she found out she had stage 5 cancer she was un affraid, and knew that whatever would happen to her it was gods plan and would tell us kids over and over its going to be ok, i am fighting... not for me, but for you!! And oh goodness let me tell you what... she did fight and she put up an amazing fight that is for sure! She had lost her vision, her memory, and was losing her ability to even speak, but that never stopped her!!!
She ended up fighting for just about a year until one day she just got so weak and was struggling so much the nurse knew that it was her time to go, but mom refused to leave us because we were not wanting her to go anywhere. But as her family we knew it was what was best for mom at the time so that she could find peace and to be able to return to our Heavenly Father and be in a perfect healthy body! So as we knelt down to pray around mom and said our goodbye's we told her it was "OK" to leave us, that we would be able to take care of ourselves she had one last beautiful and amazing breath her on earth and she was gone!!!
Nothing could ever feel more humble to me than when people look at me and say "you look just like your mom, beautiful!" Makes my heart melt and i just get the biggest smile on my face. There is nothing more i would love then to be told that, because i know that i am a rememberance of my mother and that is really special to me!!!
I know she not only loved us kids and our family, but she loved everyone that surrounded her! neighbors, co- workers, and even strangers! She was the most amazing person and i am so blessed that i get to talk about her and know that she is a special soul to me and to many others and all i want for her is happiness and i know that is exactly what she has right now in heaven!!! I LOVE YOU MOM! with all my heart and that'll never change!!!
I don't even know where to start with telling you guys how blessed i was to have the mom i had.. She was my best friend, my life savor, and most of all my MOM!! They always say a child is always more comfortable with their mother and that is because she carried us for 9 months.. she feed us, and loved us from the moment we were in her womb!!
My mother was the most caring and gracious woman anyone could have ever known. She never cared about herself whether it was her needing to eat, or get a new piece of clothing, or needing money. She put everyone else before her to make them happy!! When she found out she had stage 5 cancer she was un affraid, and knew that whatever would happen to her it was gods plan and would tell us kids over and over its going to be ok, i am fighting... not for me, but for you!! And oh goodness let me tell you what... she did fight and she put up an amazing fight that is for sure! She had lost her vision, her memory, and was losing her ability to even speak, but that never stopped her!!!
She ended up fighting for just about a year until one day she just got so weak and was struggling so much the nurse knew that it was her time to go, but mom refused to leave us because we were not wanting her to go anywhere. But as her family we knew it was what was best for mom at the time so that she could find peace and to be able to return to our Heavenly Father and be in a perfect healthy body! So as we knelt down to pray around mom and said our goodbye's we told her it was "OK" to leave us, that we would be able to take care of ourselves she had one last beautiful and amazing breath her on earth and she was gone!!!
Nothing could ever feel more humble to me than when people look at me and say "you look just like your mom, beautiful!" Makes my heart melt and i just get the biggest smile on my face. There is nothing more i would love then to be told that, because i know that i am a rememberance of my mother and that is really special to me!!!
I know she not only loved us kids and our family, but she loved everyone that surrounded her! neighbors, co- workers, and even strangers! She was the most amazing person and i am so blessed that i get to talk about her and know that she is a special soul to me and to many others and all i want for her is happiness and i know that is exactly what she has right now in heaven!!! I LOVE YOU MOM! with all my heart and that'll never change!!!
HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!!!!!
BiRtDaY gIrL*
Well those of you who follow me that i just recently had my birthday... So weird knowing i am now 21. I am not legal to buy alcohol! haha. good thing i do not do that stuff though so now days turning 21 is just another day to say i am becoming an old brat! :) ha. So i thought i would just kinda tell you a bit of how my birthday went...
The guy i have been kinda/sorta dating or friend... or whatever.. ha. He drove down Friday morning (my birthday) and spent the whole day with me! it was great!! While he took forever to get here my brother had the day off as well so he ended up taking me out to breakfast at Sill's Cafe, probably the best breakfast place EVER! so great!! Well we got done eating and Kory had still not arrived so my brother and i decided to go out and do some golfing... not the smartest idea beings that we were golfing in 30 mph wind and on top of that it was snowing!!!! But my brother was determined to finish all nine holes so he did. Then we went home!
About the same time we had got home from the golf course Kory had arrived FINALLY!! ha. So from there on out it was never ending of doing something. We went up to the mall and we went shopping and he bought me a super cute purse, which was very much needed i had been telling him that forever ha. My other purse was so out dated it was a bit ridiculous! Well shopping sure wore me out so we came back to my house and watched a movie and took a little snooze.
We woke up and of course he was hungry.. whats new though that boy is an eating machine but yet cannot gain a pound off it! poor thing! haha. So i called up my brother and sister in law and asked them if they wanted to meet up with us for dinner and go to goodwood, (that was an interesting dinner date that is for sure, of course it was me who made it awkward with my stupid questions.) but it was still a blast to be able to spend time with my brother and sister!!
Later we wanted to do some mini golfing and desert or something but were still so full from dinner so once again we came back to my place and watched another movie and dosed off. And after we were ready to go we hit up some mini golfing and of course I DOMINATED! :/// haha. i gotta make myself look good sometimes right? and what better than to make it on my birthday! :)) we came home after mini golfing and just stayed the rest of the night inside watching movies and then went to bed!
We woke up saturday morning and went golfing with my family! IT WAS SUCH A BLAST!! i loved spending time with my family and kory! My dad wanted to make things interesting so we were starting the back 9 and he wanted to take on zach, jordan, kory, and i against him in a game! Of course he had some bad shots got pissed off and ended up losing and having to buy all of us costa vida! and it was bomb!! Still though my favorite was just getting to spend time with the ones who i care and love most!!!
Thanks for the best birthday a girl could ask for it was great!!!!
The guy i have been kinda/sorta dating or friend... or whatever.. ha. He drove down Friday morning (my birthday) and spent the whole day with me! it was great!! While he took forever to get here my brother had the day off as well so he ended up taking me out to breakfast at Sill's Cafe, probably the best breakfast place EVER! so great!! Well we got done eating and Kory had still not arrived so my brother and i decided to go out and do some golfing... not the smartest idea beings that we were golfing in 30 mph wind and on top of that it was snowing!!!! But my brother was determined to finish all nine holes so he did. Then we went home!
About the same time we had got home from the golf course Kory had arrived FINALLY!! ha. So from there on out it was never ending of doing something. We went up to the mall and we went shopping and he bought me a super cute purse, which was very much needed i had been telling him that forever ha. My other purse was so out dated it was a bit ridiculous! Well shopping sure wore me out so we came back to my house and watched a movie and took a little snooze.
We woke up and of course he was hungry.. whats new though that boy is an eating machine but yet cannot gain a pound off it! poor thing! haha. So i called up my brother and sister in law and asked them if they wanted to meet up with us for dinner and go to goodwood, (that was an interesting dinner date that is for sure, of course it was me who made it awkward with my stupid questions.) but it was still a blast to be able to spend time with my brother and sister!!
Later we wanted to do some mini golfing and desert or something but were still so full from dinner so once again we came back to my place and watched another movie and dosed off. And after we were ready to go we hit up some mini golfing and of course I DOMINATED! :/// haha. i gotta make myself look good sometimes right? and what better than to make it on my birthday! :)) we came home after mini golfing and just stayed the rest of the night inside watching movies and then went to bed!
We woke up saturday morning and went golfing with my family! IT WAS SUCH A BLAST!! i loved spending time with my family and kory! My dad wanted to make things interesting so we were starting the back 9 and he wanted to take on zach, jordan, kory, and i against him in a game! Of course he had some bad shots got pissed off and ended up losing and having to buy all of us costa vida! and it was bomb!! Still though my favorite was just getting to spend time with the ones who i care and love most!!!
Thanks for the best birthday a girl could ask for it was great!!!!
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