hardships.

Ever had something you had to do but really did not want to?? Though you know it is the best thing to do? well yup i just had to feel and do that today!! Was it easy? NOPE not one bit! But all i can think about is this is the right thing to do this is what is going to be best. Through the tears that i shed i know deep down that one day the happiness will come out!!

"even during the worst hardships, when all other things seem to fall

apart in our lives, we can still find peace and eternal love

in god!"

All I can do for myself is smile and be as happy as i can be and to know that everything will fall into place the way it is suppose to be. Everything that happens, happens for a reason and that is the one quote that runs through my head over and over again!! So for me i know everything will be ok! I got my heavenly father, my mom, and myself to tell me everything is fine and is the right thing!! Just didn't know something like this would hurt me so bad, and to tear up so much! wow. 

Although i really can't let something like this be on my mind right before surgery i gotta focus on me and my life and my health and having this surgery coming so soon, i need to worry about ME, MYSELF!!! not someone else.. wow this will be tough. Just know shanie... 

ITS THE RIGHT THING TO DO!