conquer your fears. don't hold BACK!

Alright, wow where do i even start? well ok how about i start out with my day! today has been a pretty good day i got called into work and i only worked ONE HOUR and in that one hour i made 200 in sales and made a 20 dollar tip... so if you think about it man that is pretty darn good! haha. After work my bestie stephie came over and we watched home alone: lost in New York, only the most amazing movie ever! Then we decided to watch another christmas movie so we watched miracle on 34th street, another great show! I must say! 

Some people believe that holding on and hanging in there are signs of strength. However, there are times in life in which it takes much more strength to just let go." -Unknown

Well lets just say during that movie i was texting a friend of mine about things!!! WOW i have never been so stressed, nervous, fearful, etc... I have the opportunity to go to Virginia and i am just really freaking out about it because  fears that i have! Well a really good friend i have recently been able to meet started chatting with me on Facebook about it all, and wow to be honest he actually made me feel a lot better, though i still just get those thoughts and fears in the way of me! I really would love to go and spend a week there and see the sights and hangout! ONE THING.. and i know Mikey and i talked about this and this is the one fear i am determined to conquer.... the family! I may not have the happiest family and i worry to go there and see them so happy and showing love and affection, i have not seen that from my family in well about 4 years! i don't know what a happy family is really like!! 

So bloggers here it is, the day i conquer one of my fears i am going to go to virginia, and i am going to have the time of my life and i am going to see this family that is so loving and happy and amazing and think to myself that is going to be me when i have my own family! I am not going to let my childhood and teen years of what has happened to me, happen to my kids! so now i show you these quotes because they seriously have just changed my perspective on life and on me and how to live my life! to know that life does go on and that we cannot let satan get to us and hold us back from our dreams!! 

"Life is not a race - but indeed a journey. Be honest. Work hard. Be choosy. Say "thank you", "I love you", and "great job" to someone each day. Go to church, take time for prayer. The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh. Let your handshake mean more than pen and paper. Love your life and what you've been given, it is not accidental - search for your purpose and do it as best you can. Dreaming does matter. It allows you to become that which you aspire to be. Laugh often. Appreciate the little things in life and enjoy them. Some of the best things really are free. Do not worry, less wrinkles are more becoming. Forgive, it frees the soul. Take time for yourself - plan for longevity. Recognize the special people you've been blessed to know. Live for today, enjoy the moment." -Don't Know